You keep throwing me bones
But I cannot eat
They are hollow
The marrow has been sucked out
And the blood
You took a bath in it
And you didn't even know
Oh, Giant
Oh, Saint
You thought it was water
And you drank
I cannot blame you
For there is no blame
I cannot tame you
For there is no tame
Life goes on without my mind
My abyss, declined
And little children still play outside
While I sit
In peroxide
And try to clean away my sin
Still
These waters run deep
into the core
With its insidious heat
There is simply enough water
To absorb oscillation
I can't take your honor
I am a weigh-station
The eyes are windows to a locked door
In an empty room
If you could just stop
These buds will not bloom
with your incessant taunting
Verging on abuse
Not with your words
or explained ease of use
Capillaries flood
into a bright enigmatic spring
Do not drink from it
It will make you sick; It won't mean a thing.
Your brain will grow and swell in aneurismic confusion
It is a locked door
Your intrusion
The key is not yours; nor is there a skeleton
My closet
Judged by invisible standards
Men that can't even look me in the eye
Tell me what they want indirectly
Without discretion
Through serpent tongues
And fat, boisterous laughing men that hate
Look me in the eye, my immortal keeper
Is there something in me that you didn't mean to give?
A look of understanding, of grief for you
Tell me that you want me to burn
Tell me how you want the flames to lick my skin clean of glittery sin
I fear you as much as I fear myself
I fear you as much as you fear all of us
With no heart on your sleeve
Or in your head
Or in your mouth
When you speak
Teach me Greek
Hieroglyphics
Decode your heartbeats
I need them in my atmosphere
I walk like a shadow
Into the mist
Fog
I walk like an Egyptian
To the slaughterhouse
Pharaoh, Help me understand
Put your heart in my heart, in my hands
I want to crush it
Drain it into the river
Like Moses
A new life
My shadow proceeds me
I am gone before I even arrive
You may see a faint outline, an overcast depiction of my feelings, my flesh, my bone
Gray matter that doesn't
The glasses will clink and someone will spill wine, and gasp as if it is laced with turpentine
On the carpet
I will clean it up, wrought my hands with the blood of the grapes
It is no longer there
And I never was
The ground Is a firm pillow
The sun rays turn my icy skin to gold
And I wait by the willow
For an outstretched hand to hold
Intricate vessels, these veins
I sit and watch the blood careen
Inside a train
It moves about the city scene
The horizon is still with the slant of the hill
And I choke on the air that propels the whole thing
I hear a bird begin to sing
"You're just a girl.
You don't need to believe."
I drop to the ground and I smell the sweet grass
I drop to the ground and I'm fading fast
This is all there ever was and this is all there will ever be
It Is silence and air and grass evergreen
I was too foolish to see tha
There is a well inside my body
I have covered it with rock
Sheets of granite
And indifference
Marble and melancholy
I am slate
I am gray
The waters are boiling
And blistering the sides
Erosion or explosion
Will take its place in time
It will surge and it will swell
And though it feels like softcore Hell
I will miss my well
I need to say something
But my throat tightens
Muscles caving in
Tongue tight on the roof
Of the home of my words
I've nothing to say
Just a flickering thought in a brain in a cave.
I thought I'd write and ask you to visit some day.
To fall through the clouds and appear in the mines
Of my mind
But you changed your address
And I'm happy you're at home
You keep throwing me bones
But I cannot eat
They are hollow
The marrow has been sucked out
And the blood
You took a bath in it
And you didn't even know
Oh, Giant
Oh, Saint
You thought it was water
And you drank
I cannot blame you
For there is no blame
I cannot tame you
For there is no tame
Life goes on without my mind
My abyss, declined
And little children still play outside
While I sit
In peroxide
And try to clean away my sin
Still
These waters run deep
into the core
With its insidious heat
There is simply enough water
To absorb oscillation
I can't take your honor
I am a weigh-station
The eyes are windows to a locked door
In an empty room
If you could just stop
These buds will not bloom
with your incessant taunting
Verging on abuse
Not with your words
or explained ease of use
Capillaries flood
into a bright enigmatic spring
Do not drink from it
It will make you sick; It won't mean a thing.
Your brain will grow and swell in aneurismic confusion
It is a locked door
Your intrusion
The key is not yours; nor is there a skeleton
My closet
Judged by invisible standards
Men that can't even look me in the eye
Tell me what they want indirectly
Without discretion
Through serpent tongues
And fat, boisterous laughing men that hate
Look me in the eye, my immortal keeper
Is there something in me that you didn't mean to give?
A look of understanding, of grief for you
Tell me that you want me to burn
Tell me how you want the flames to lick my skin clean of glittery sin
I fear you as much as I fear myself
I fear you as much as you fear all of us
With no heart on your sleeve
Or in your head
Or in your mouth
When you speak
Teach me Greek
Hieroglyphics
Decode your heartbeats
I need them in my atmosphere
I walk like a shadow
Into the mist
Fog
I walk like an Egyptian
To the slaughterhouse
Pharaoh, Help me understand
Put your heart in my heart, in my hands
I want to crush it
Drain it into the river
Like Moses
A new life
My shadow proceeds me
I am gone before I even arrive
You may see a faint outline, an overcast depiction of my feelings, my flesh, my bone
Gray matter that doesn't
The glasses will clink and someone will spill wine, and gasp as if it is laced with turpentine
On the carpet
I will clean it up, wrought my hands with the blood of the grapes
It is no longer there
And I never was
The ground Is a firm pillow
The sun rays turn my icy skin to gold
And I wait by the willow
For an outstretched hand to hold
Intricate vessels, these veins
I sit and watch the blood careen
Inside a train
It moves about the city scene
The horizon is still with the slant of the hill
And I choke on the air that propels the whole thing
I hear a bird begin to sing
"You're just a girl.
You don't need to believe."
I drop to the ground and I smell the sweet grass
I drop to the ground and I'm fading fast
This is all there ever was and this is all there will ever be
It Is silence and air and grass evergreen
I was too foolish to see tha
There is a well inside my body
I have covered it with rock
Sheets of granite
And indifference
Marble and melancholy
I am slate
I am gray
The waters are boiling
And blistering the sides
Erosion or explosion
Will take its place in time
It will surge and it will swell
And though it feels like softcore Hell
I will miss my well
I need to say something
But my throat tightens
Muscles caving in
Tongue tight on the roof
Of the home of my words
I've nothing to say
Just a flickering thought in a brain in a cave.
I thought I'd write and ask you to visit some day.
To fall through the clouds and appear in the mines
Of my mind
But you changed your address
And I'm happy you're at home
I need to say something
But my throat tightens
Muscles caving in
Tongue tight on the roof
Of the home of my words
I've nothing to say
Just a flickering thought in a brain in a cave.
I thought I'd write and ask you to visit some day.
To fall through the clouds and appear in the mines
Of my mind
But you changed your address
And I'm happy you're at home